finally asked out girl unfortunately she was not worth it:
12:19 a.m. 2007-08-20

Today after work I asked a girl out at work whom I wanted to ask out for probably 2 weeks. I was undecided whether I should ask her out on a date with the potential of being my girlfriend or simply for a booty call. I decided on the former option because I thought she was girlfriend material and deserved the chance to be considered as such. Plus I thought she would appreciate the fact that I appreciate her for more than just her body, which is great by the way.

I saw her sitting by herself at a table reading on her break. The lunchroom was scarce with people which boded well for my ability to be able to ask her out without interuption but more important privacy. I asked her if I could interupt her for just a moment and then I sat beside her on the bench. It was awkward what I was going to say to her and I told her as much. I summoned up the courage and told her that I wanted to go on a date with her and asked her if she would be interested on going out on a date with me to the museum, movie or to someplace else she wanted to go.

Her response to my question was as follows. She said that while it was sweet that I asked her out in such a nice way that she has made the decision to concentrate on school work and to this end she has decided to cut out dating. She also mentioned that she has had bad luck on the dating front as well as an alternative reason for not accepting my offer.

It was damn near impossible for me at the time to dispute the wisdom of her decision at the time because spending time toward bettering ones education is a worthy cause. After that I basically told her that I would let her get back to her book in an amicable fashion and then I tried to gather my belonging in my slightly shocked state and then I left.

Get rejected I believe will always hurt no matter the circumstances behind it. But after the latest rejection the pain was less then previous times which I do not know if this is good or bad thing. I just had to buy myself some miny gifts after such a horrowing day. I was in the mood for comedy so got a cornecopia if you could call 4 movies that. Napoleon Dynamite, Nacho Libre, Tommy Boy and Dumb and Dumber which is not bad for a single shopping trip.

All I can say that in terms of learning curves she is behind me as I once tried to concentrate solely on academics and it blew up in my face leaving me lonely and unable to concentrate on school work. She too will learn this. Also on her learning list is that she may discover that the people who she thought would wait for her have moved on with their lives which no longer have a place for her.

About the topic of rejection my grandmother told me earlier while watching a movie that no girl is so important to harm myself over as the main character's friend commited suicide because of his girlfriend who dumpped him. If a girl should reject me I should tell them to kiss my ass and then procede to find someone more suitable. This seems to be very wise advise indeed. Thanks Grandma. I love my feisty nana.

I intend now that I have resolved the what if possibility with this girl to seek someone more suitable to be my girlfriend and put her way behind me where she is no longer existant.