I don't want to hear about or read about sex:
9:18 p.m. 2003-09-22

I don't want to hear about or read about sex. Why? Because I don't want to make self comparisons between myself and other people. I just want to have sex. Why are others having sex and I'm not? It's not fair! I'm sexy am I not! This is exactly what I want to avoid. I love sex talk but I just can't take it right now. I want to so bady but it looks like something that going to happen in the future when I don't know. Where I don't know. How I know! I'm not that ignorant. Ha Ha. But hopefully soon.

Today I was supposed to be concentrating on accounting but what happened. Their was one girl in my class that I thought was sexy and her friend was the "ugly one" but I looked at her all class and her friend that was quite curvaceous to say the least. Than I thought to myself that with the way that they were constantly talking they might have been lesbians lovers, they seemed quite close. That disappointed me because if they're lesbian lovers than that is it. I have no shot!

Than I started to imagine what it would be like to be in a threesome with these girls. I pictured that the slim one would bury her face into the the curvaceous one's pussy and eat her like it was her last meal! The curvaceous one would cum a lot and the slim girl would have cum all over mouth and dripping down her chin. And than I would mount the curvaceous girl and grind my hips into her like a savage beast and she would be filled with cock. And my cock's vibrations would cause her to have incredible feelings of warmth and longing and she would continue to guide my thursting until the orgram. And I relish the warm bath and stickiness of her love juices on my penis and balls and wait until my penis is firm and than start her toward another lovely orgasm. And I'm at my desk and I have to stop daydreaming I'm suppose to be concentrating but I didn't feel guilty and won't. I just hope I didn't have a goofy grin on while daydreaming and others figured out what I was thinking about. But I'm probably just paranoid because very few know me and fewer care and so they're not pating attention. But It was good each though it was a fantasy. :-)