The first time I was disappointed with Julia:
11:18 p.m. 2007-04-25

I was in the lunchroom sitting alone and had a magazine in my hand but instead of reading I would have preferred talking to a friendly person. When my new friend came in and decided to sit at a table bursting with people instead of with me I was quite upset. My first thought was what kind of friend would do an insensitive thing such as that? I do not know but I guess I have to watch if this behaviour continues with Julia. At least she acknowledges my presence and smiles to various degrees. But standards are so fucking low that is all that qualifies as a friend these days.

She seems content to just be my friend in my email correspondence with her so that is how we shall remain and at least it clarifies things.

There is another girl who I fancy at work. In the past we have fought like cats and dogs but have since mended our differences. She was in a stressed mood today due to some rude customer which I can understand and didn't want to talk much so when she was in the lunchroom I let the curvaceous hottie eat her soap and her crackers. What I wouldn't give to have her to hold me in her arms.