Working out the whole booty call and the fear involved:
10:16 p.m. 2007-05-11

I am here in my room and am literally terrified about the prospect of a "booty call" I want to make to a girl at my workplace we will call her Dora for reference sake. I do believe that she is the type of person that would enjoy a booty call as she enjoys sex in general and is not shy about the topic. So let me cross the risk of offending her my list of worries.

Am I concerned about being turned down by Dora, its a dorky nickname but its the best I can do, you bet! To this end I have been hashing and rehashing how I am going to approach her.

My latest signario has me approach Dora and say to her seductively smooth voice hi and tell her how sexy she looks and purposely brush her arm or touch her on the arm and then walk by her and then look back at her and smile and/or maybe wink at her. Maybe I should cross off the wink as I am inexperienced in winking on command in a flirtaceous fashion. Next time I see her I would complement her appearance and ask her if she has plans and if she did not I would invite her to come over so that I could show her how I feel about her.

Second signario has me skipping the first meeting and instead telling Dora how sexy she is and taking the opportunity to check her out right in front of me and then smile. I could do this while remaining relatively stationary or by walking around her which would make more of an impression but also more type and increase coordination and I will be nervous so that will add to the difficulty. The I will ask her if she has any plans and if she does not then I will ask her if she would like to come over so that I could show her how I feel about her.

I thought of the following hurdles one being she not interested in me which is not a hurdle but rather a wall, the other one being she might not want to walk back to my home even though my home is close. To overcome this barrier I figure I could call a taxi to pick us up from work. If she drove over she might not mind driving back to my house but this is a bigger if.

What will happen if she rejects my offer? If I can take anything out of my rejections it can be that the girls that I asked out did so in relatively compassionate manner. In my mind when I visualize the moment when I am going to get the answer it usual involves me being publically humiliated and yet there were very few situations, one where this occured, and I was not the one doing the asking at this time. I have been humiliated in the past but not in this context so it does not apply here. So the odds are in my favour that at the very least I will be turned down in a compassionate manner which I can tolerate.