depression and post date condemnation with Nadia:
8:00 p.m. 2007-03-07

I'm feeling totally depressed right now and I have to go to work tommorrow. Agh! I feel totally alone too. I am contemplating telling my best friend at work about how I asked out Nadia and the result of that. I feel she will be sympathetic at the very least and hopefully with bring us closer togather as far as friends are concerned. I fear the first time I see Nadia post date condemnation will be the worst. It is like a switch when I a person the switch goes on in my brain and I recoglect the painful past like a film that will keep replaying until I cannot take it anymore and I have to look away from the person in order to get some relief from the painful drama. I guess I will have to see what happens tommorow at work.