how an embarasing situation turned into a talk with my mom.:
7:32 p.m. 2007-02-14

I had an embarassing situation involving my mom in my room. Being the nice guy I am I attempted to help her look for ceiling lighting fixtures online. She was sitting on my bed where my pillow was situated and I suppose she found something hard under her butt.

What she found was the dvd case for my Anal Seduction video. Busted! She didn't get mad but it was mundo embarassing nonetheless. She told me that I didn't need to look at pictures of naked women if I had a naked girlfriend.

She asked me if I wanted a girlfriend and I replied that I did. What I left out was how badly I wanted one. She asked if it was because I was shy that I didn't have a girlfriend which is a big part of why I am lonely.

I did get an offer from this girl at work to help me find a girlfriend which I dismissed because of my pride and partially because of a bad experience I had with a setup. I think I will accept her help assuming she is still willing to help me. Anyways much better than a previous offer I had to hook me up from this annoying guy who wants to pawn this girl off on me he is so eager to to get rid of. Get this she is looking for a man with two jobs. What a wonderful catch!

Anyways back to the conversation with my mom. I told her that to get a girlfriend wasn't that easy to get and that I have asked some girls basically but they didn't feel the same way. This is paraphrasing what I said because I was so embarassed in many ways. For a few hours the short talk brought back the sadness but also the urgency I had to find a girlfriend.