the feeling of longing with one difference:
11:39 p.m. 2007-04-02

I am feeling the longing of not having a girlfriend. The only difference than the past times is I know who I want to be my girlfriend. We are friends right now and she said that she would invite me when she is going movies. I not sure if this was a hollow promise or if there was intent there. However considering the person she is I believe her to be genuine. I was so touched at the concern she showed for my well being last time I worked when I was so consumed with frustration and she was trying to get me to calm down by not focusing too much on it. I am so glad that there is actually people who care. Not very many people mind you as I can count them on one hand but still. I have been telling her how I go to the park to get away and while I am there I take pictures. I plan on showing her my pictures and have today been printing them out so I can put them in a gallery. Not all of them but just the good ones from this year and since it just recently became warm enough that the ice has pretty much melted I can go to the park without killing myself.