she likes me, she likes me not.:
7:13 p.m. 2004-04-07

I don't know why but reading privatenola's diary helped me. You read another person's diary! You naughty boy! This would probably be the typical response anyone would receive if you told someone about our "secret activities". Anyways I think the diary helped me because it gives me some hope that something like that can happen to me. That a woman would miss my presence, my touch, how I gaze upon her and my distinct scent.

I am already daydreaming about a girl that I talk to a little bit in class. Actually we talked briefly today and to be honest upon reflecting on the content of the conversation I cannot remember any of it. But I know one thing about the conversation for sure that she turned around and initiated the conversation which is nice for once that a female initated one with me. It very rarely that this happens and that might be a understatement. And she said bye see you next class or something similar and now here is my dilemna.

I am confused because I don't know if she feels the following for me: a) she pitys me, b)likes me as a friend or c) likes me in a romantic sense. I'm hoping that the answer is c.

I guess that only way at determining her interest level is to ask her if she would like to grab a coffee with me or something. Pose the question like I'm going to grab a coffee would you like to grab one as well or something like that. If she is interested she will either accept or express interest by saying "maybe another time".

Well the school year is almost over so I doubt I could ask her 2 times nor could I stand more than 2 rejections from the same woman nor would I want to appear too needy. God I hate playing fucking games. I am needy and I need a woman that's the bottom line. All the rest is bullshit which is 98% of everything, I feel.

I concede that I'm not good at these types of interactions. If anyone has advice or idea and would like to pass them along I'd be appreciative.

I was going to say something else but can't remember what it was. It is amazing how new priorities push the old ones out of your head just like that.