mopeing at home before I go to work:
3:15 p.m. 2007-01-31

I just am mopeing around the house waiting for that time to come when you absolutely have leave to get to work. I absolutely don't want to go to Walmart to serve customers. I would rather take care of myself and how I feel. I feel lonely and don't exactly know what to do to rectify this. All the things I am missing by not having a great girlfriend. There are girls where I work which I am interested in but it all seems they are accounted for. Not a fucking single one in the bunch at least of the women that I am interested in. There are some girls who are boarder-line 18, 19 who I have little in common with but are so incredibly hot and tempting. They are like in their prime as far as hotness is concerned which is shocking. How did women of this age develop so quickly? I guess I can say that unfortunately there is not many women around my age whom I am really interested in. There are either 10 years too young or 10 or more years too old. I can't win. I keep telling myself that I shouldn't sweat what I cannot control but I can't help it. It makes me feel terrible not having anyone. What I would not give to have my dick sucked. Most guys take it for granted because they can get a blowjob almost anytime they want from their girlfriend or wife. This sucks! What did I do to deserve the lack of attention I get from the opposite sex? If that doesn't prove that life isn't fair then I don't know what does.