No Lock Up/Nadia's Love Letter:
9:13 p.m. 2007-02-28

How about this. When I fill the need to lock my diary up I will instead close my diary. I am strictly opposed to the lock diaries so I will not be doing it.

Today I finally gave my love letter to Nadia. I not was quite sure that I would see her today but thought the possibility was there because she works weekdays primarily. There she was lovely as ever at the layaway desk doing some office like work.

Shortly after I arrived the phone started ringing and 2 stupid boys started to monopolize her time even though I suppose she could have told them to buzz off. And after they left and I thought they would never leave, it really started to piss me off, when I wanted to talk another guy wanted to talk to her as well and all I could do was give her the letter and tell her it wasn't a bill and that she could read at work if she desired. After that I nervously went to the back to check my work schedule while I anxiously awaited her response to my letter.

After I checked my schedule I wanted to talk to her to see what she thought but she was on the phone, I hate that fucking place, and decided to leave and give her time to digest or at least read the letter which I am unsure if she did read it. I did look back at her before I left and she looked unhappy or maybe deep in thought.

I did get the distinct feeling as if she will tell me later that she is not interested in being more than friends but maybe that is the eternal optimist in me speaking. Either way I have to know how she feels about me so that I can move in one romantic direction or another so the closure will be good at the least. I hope she says yes to the possible to us though. She is everything I could want in a girlfriend, sexy, smart and warm. I guess I will see though.