I will not be used now or ever so get used to it!:
8:26 p.m. 2006-06-12

I hate when I am right sometimes and today is one of these times. The first set of times I have seen her since high school everytime I talked to her she was pressuring me trying to get me to buy a moped and for that reason I was apprehensive about spending anytime with her given the topic would be continually brought up. At this time I was nothing to her but a potential customer. The sweet girl whom I once known from high school is no longer or maybe never was. To think that I had sex fantasies about her when she is clearly unworthy of my adoration.

She returned my call that I made earlier on in the day that is about the only good thing I can say about her. I phoned her because I desperately wanted to talk to her and to see her. I thought that she might have liked me but instead I found out that she was only interested in cheap manual labour. That became evident when she kept bring the fact up that she was doing a renovation and was looking for help. She even tried to play with some insecurities I could have had involving not being useful to my mom as if I could make admends by helping her with her renovation. She asked me repeatedly in disbelief that I had no renovation experience. As soon as it became evident that I couldn't be of use to her, her interest in me dropped way off, so much so that I offered to buy her a coffee sometime and she declined claiming she was too busy for it. How much time does it take to have a coffee with some one? Anyways I am glad that I did not do a thing for the bitch. Let someone else be her muscles. I will use mine for someone who cares about me that I also care about and for my own purposes not anyone elses.