lying on my bed pouting and not wanting to do much else due to loneliness issues:
1:41 p.m. 2007-03-03

I do not know exactly why but I feel poutty all day. I believe it has to do with me feeling lonely as I keeping thinking about the situation with Nadia and various signarios in event she says she just wants to stay friends which is a definate possibility. If I had give anyone advise on love I would tell them to find that unpopular and yet lovely of people who can devote 60-70% of their time to them instead of 5 or 10% in the case of Nadia. I fear even if she does want to take things to the next level relationship wise she is unwilling to unhook the mob of people from her social itinerary, because she enjoys wallflower status more then she could ever care for me I fear, to devote the time needed to me. Yes I would definately say you are better off with the diamond in ruff in the case of romance. Unfortunately you cannot help who you are attracted to at times. I hope she is diferent than my perception but I fear not.