why am I dreading writting this paper so badly:
10:34 p.m. 2007-01-09

I do not know why I should feel this way but I am scared about starting this paper I have to write for a course I am taking so I am procrastinating. The longer I procrastinate the worse it will be as far as the workload is concerned so it is definately something I do not want to put off any longer. I am sure whatever the fear is about is more than feeling nervous about writing a paper because I have probably written about a hundred papers during college and they all turned out more or less fine when given the time to turnout a winner. I have no doubt that feeling alone and being unable to solve that problem has left me feeling helpless in other areas of my life as well. I suppose being at an job I despise and not knowing how I will be able to replace this job with one more barable also doesn't help. The fear is unfounded though because one skill set has nothing to do with the other then the fact that my brain is responsible for accomplishing both and if I am not in a frame of mind condusive to concentration my success will be limited.