issue resolved with Nadia:
7:23 p.m. 2007-03-05

Today I talked with Nadia and things are definately finalized. It turns out that Nadia had been seeing someone since January and for that reason she has to decline my offer. For the record she was very impressed with my letter and stated it was the first one she has ever received. She also told me that I was a nice guy and that she would have gone out with me if it weren't for the following fact. She gave me a warm smile and a hug which was slightly comforting under the circumstances. At least I was able to talk with her uninterupted and find out how she actually feels. Now I can move on to other fish in the sea and all that crap.

After talking with Nadia I was starting to feel the pain of my rejection and didn't know what I wanted to do next or where to go even. I was outside the store and contemplated going home but realized this wasn't the place I needed to be as there is so much ongoing here with contactors, appliance deliveries and mom and I needed to do some thinking to get around the current issue. I felt the cold wind on my face as I walked up the street but I welcomed it as it numbed the pain I was feeling. I felt the cold but not as much as regularly as a walked in a half daze down the street towards the local electronics retailer which oftered me a diversion in the present and future.

I ended up with Smallville season 3 and An Inconvienient Truth for myself. I also got a tv box set of Futurama for my brother. His birthday is tommorow and I am thankful for that diversion that it affords me from my current personal woes to think about his day for periods of time. I also have my school studies to occupy my time as well. It seems I got my wish to have the situation resolved. Unfortunately it did not work out to my satisfaction.