worried about revealling myself to Julia:
1:17 a.m. 2007-04-11

I am so worried that when I do reveal myself to Julia I will find out that she does not feel the same way about me and that will be that. Not that I should be worried about this because I have been here before but the fact is I really like her and would be very disappointed if she said no to me asking her out. What I like about her is that she actually listens when I talk with her. She actually cares about my well being and expresses concern and tries to comfort me. Almost always offers me some of her food in the lunchroom which shows how sweet and considerate she is. I do have a concern though that her lack of sexual expression shows a lack of interest. I want to express my love to her in a sexual way as I would like her to do to me. It is really opportant to have a girl who is willing to explore sexually in order not only to please me but to allow me to please her better. As far as looks are concerned she is pretty with big expressive eyes, lustrous black shoulder length hair and full lips and for a small girl I think she has a nice round behind even though it is hard to tell because she hard ever wears tight pants. How is a guy suppose to check a girl out when she refuses to participate? lol. Damon.