weather, job hunt and personal life weighing on me and a treat for you.:
12:40 p.m. 2007-05-16

I am trying to feel why I am feeling the way I am. I am just mopeing around the house. I was if they were rain clouds over my world and at any time the rain could come down on any second drenching all optimism I had. Ironically enough here in the city it is overcast and has rained at least once for a period of the morning and probably will rain off and on for the whole day. Whenever this is the case I am not motivated to go out and energywise I feel a bit drained.

The weather is a part of my current mood but also thoughts of my current job search are also on my mind. I always find the job hunt to be very tough as you apply many places with very little response offered to my applications. The whole process leaves me feel very pestimistic about continuing on as I am made to feel like a used condom. The times when I do manage to get a first interview which is maybe like 1% of the time that where it usual ends so wish me luck readers of my diary.

Finally I am thinking about my personal life which is not remotely what I want. I am thinking about the bootie call I was going to make to one of the girl I work with. I am of the mind that it may not happen because I barely see her and does not go out of her way by any means to see how I am doing. Dora is also hanging around with Nadia who from my experience is too busy. So I will not hold my breath and will try to move ahead personally.

One thing that is buoying my mood upward is listening to Amy Winehouse's Back to Black album and it is excellent. The album has an old school vocal jazz sound not unlike Billie Holliday. Amy' voice is great so she totally pulls it off. There is no doubt that girl has pipes. I would not have discovered her music if it weren't for the fact that I got an email from itunes advertising their spring fling sale which she was part of. Great value! Only thing I wish I had was the lyrics. There is not a weak song on the whole album as all of them are hits. 5/5.