reason for mopeing=loneliness+girl from yesteryear:
12:04 p.m. 2007-07-15

For some reason I just cannot help mopeing and I do not know exactly why that is. I have been thinking/desperately hopeing that I will have a meaningful relationship with a woman and all the privilages that bestowes. I am sick of being in my room alone wishing there was someone who could hold me, run their fingers through my hair or suck my dick for that matter. I know for other people who already have this they take it for granted that life should be any other way. But to me such a person to have in my life would be meaningful and rightly cherished.

I meet this girl whom I knew from high school which to be honest I did not know well to any exact. She was barely aware of me at the time as she was quite popular, had an active social life, and had a boyfriend. I on the other hand admired her beauty and not unlike current times was scared beyond words. I was working in electronics at the time and I help her find an attenna for tv and distinguished the differences between the 2 product options. She praised me for my help and was quite patient when I was interupted in helping her by a coworker. She was in stark constant to what seems like the majority of the customers I serve. I told her that she reminded me of a student I once went to school with and she said that indeed she was that person. She still contained that beauty she had in high school and if anything she was more beautiful like a flower in full bloom. I was afraid to ask her what she was doing now careerwise but she was kind to utter encouragement to me to keep looking for better positions which I appreciated to no end given my fear in this area. I hope that I will see her again soon so I can thank her for her kindness and find out more about her. It would be nice if I could ask her out on a date as she seems like a great person to spend time with.